In Sunday’s Gospel reading (John 18: 33-37) we hear Pilate ask Jesus, “Are you the King of the Jews?” When Jesus answers, he not only answers Pilate but also answers the doubts we have when we question Him. Jesus asks Pilate, “Do you say this of your own accord or did others say it to you about me?” Imagine being asked this question by Jesus. Are you willing to look into the depths of your heart, examine your every action, and truly see if HE resides there as King?
Taking that honest look into the depths of our hearts can be a difficult task and it can be a little scary, especially if we know there is something we don’t want to face which dwells in great darkness. But, we can expose all the darkness in our hearts to the light of God’s love and never ending mercy, if we seek to use the gift of fortitude given to us by the Holy Spirit. Sometimes, the deep dark recesses of our hearts reveal a trembling and fearful child hiding within which God truly loves and desires so much to see again. Having the Lord as King in our hearts is not about submitting ourselves to a heartless, unloving ruler. Instead, it is about being vulnerable and trusting that He will love and accept that inner child who hides in our darkest pit. It is about recognizing that everything, and I mean EVERYTHING, is God’s LOVING will for our lives working itself out in the present moment.
As we end another church year, let us resolve to open our hearts to Him and despite the suffering which may come our way, trust in His love. Let’s start the New Year, the season of Advent seeking a Savior to rescue us from our dark pit, from our fears of being unlovable, from the sin which holds us captive. Let us resolve to allow Jesus to truly reign in our hearts and in our lives as a loving God, one who knows us, accepts us, will be with us always, and will guide us to be with Him forever in paradise.